This week Tanner and Alex are doing High Adventure with our ward. Rafting and biking. Should be cool.

Last week we climbed Mount Saint Helens, that was super cool. Very hard, but totally worth it! Maybe someday we can all do it together.

Jen is headed to Utah to photograph a wedding.

Hummm. Not much else. Just doing our thing and missing you like crazy.

Oh Grammie and Grandpa John are moving back to Montana. So that’s big news too.

We love and miss you more than ever! Love you boys.

For Christmas we did our regular traditions, making gingerbread houses, cookies and our Bethlehem dinner. We also had our code names this year. We miss you beyond words and hope you had some wonderful Christmas memories as well. I wish things could be different and pray they will someday. We love and miss you constantly! Love Jen

Tonight we walked around WSU campus, do you remember that walk? We used to stop at the creek and play in the clay. Well, we took some video for you and pictures because we were all really missing you.

It’s been too long since we have talked and gone on walks with you. We are praying that you are doing okay and your last few weeks of school go well.

Love you!

I am just thinking about you as I finish my day today. I was able to join my mom for a funeral in Alberta for a great friend of our families. Your dad and I came to see him in 2019 when we were in Canada.

Being at the funeral really makes me think about you and your relationship with your dad. I know you are mad at him, hate him for the things he has done and probably hate the whole situation. You have every right to. Sometimes I am mad at him about it still and how hard some things in life have become. I’m sorry you have to feel that same pain and frustration.

Today at the funeral I was just thinking about how life is so short and we can have an ability to influence and love others with that little time we have. At the funeral, the sons talked about the two great commandments. To love the Lord thy God and to love others. They talked about how their dad emulated these great commandments. It was very impactful and special to listen to this tribute to their dad.

I know you have a hard time believing it, but your dad loves Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I know in jail he relied on prayer and support from them both. He really has a testimony of the Atonement and is doing all he can in his life to be like Christ. He also drives me crazy sometimes because he emulates the second great commandment even more. He is always helping someone and giving his time to others.

Do you remember that about your dad? Do you remember us reading scriptures as a family and doing Family Home Evening all together? Do you remember his testimony and him loving and serving you? Do you remember him always helping others and giving of himself to lend a helping hand to those in need? Even while he was in jail he was called “the Chaplin” because he was there for so many people and helped those who were struggling.

I know it is hard for you to see all of this, but I hope you know it is happening. He is a good man, who mad some really crappy choices. We are all learning from those choices. All you boys, my kids, my family, your families, your dad, people in our community, people in his recovery groups, people we share our story with on podcasts, youth and missionaries we tell our story to, the non profit I volunteer with to help women, and so many other people are learning from our choices and our story.

I love you. I miss you. I have faith in you and your strengths. I pray for you all, I pray for your mom, your grandparents, Michael on how to best help you reunify, I pray for your Dad. This whole thing is such a huge mess, that I pray it will all somehow workout. I have faith that it will. Heavenly Father and Jesus love you boys and things will work out, no matter what that looks like, I know it will all workout. Love you.

Love Jen

I hope you know we are always thinking about you and missing you!

Love Jen